week 15

The past week has left me with a lot doubts and questions as to what the hell do I think I'm doing.Sometimes I think I can do this and other I know I can't. There are more I can't do this then I can. You would think I never study but I do. I have so much going on and stress it seems it will never end. So I have a big decision. Till next week.

week 14

well week 14 was Thanksgiving break. It was a busy week. I went to the movies with Tabithas soon to be in-laws, then she invited the sisters and I to a tea in Mannington on the afternoon of black Friday. Needless to say we were all tired.

My daughter cooked Thanksgiving dinner for us at her house in Buckhannon. She put out a beautiful feast.

Saturday we went to Charleston to shop for a wedding dress at David's Bridal and we were successful.

On top of all that I have been trying to get sick. My head has been hurting in the back off and on .

Well that is how my break went and I guess the studying did not help me, I seem not to be able to keep it in my head.

week 13

Well I never thought the week would end. I guess I am ready for a break. The softball video about did me in. I was ready to quit. I feel so inadequate. I am my biggest critic. I see everything I do wrong and I don't need anyone to tell me cause I automatically think it is wrong. Today was the big day to interpret and the students in class with me did a good job. Some were nervous and I know anxious, I was rooting for them in my heart. I know I was not ready to stand up in front of them. I know I could have a one on one conversation and it would all be literal but could I understand them? My doubts keep me in fear. Now it is time to sign off till next time.

week 12

This past week was sooo hard and then at the end the laptop catches on fire. Well we bought a new one last night, a mac. Now I have to learn a new system or navigate this new computer.

I am having a hard time with the softball video. The last few minutes we went over and changed so much. My paper is so messy with notes I don't think I can read it. I think I have 3 different versions on how it ends. I am so washed out I feel sick. I will have to retype the paper with the new notes just so I can read the story and have it ready for the next step.

well till next week and a better outlook.

week 11

This week was short but long in content. phew. I know in my head to sign about the meat of the sentence but it is still coming out literal. We tried signing in front of each other and some liked it but I was just as nervous as in front of the camera. The second time we did it I felt better.
Now to tackle the softball video by myself. This is going to be hard. We were told to call each other if we needed help. I know everyone else has a lot on their plate so I will try not to call too much. We have Deaf club on Saturday and it will be a busy weekend.
Well to a better week coming.

week 10

Has it really been 10 weeks?? I was beginning to think I was doing better. Then I saw my grade for that piece in Rubys class and found out I left out some info, now I will be wondering what it was forever. Watching the softball piece was hard on the eyes especially with all the rewinding. I know I do better when the class reviews together.
One day I feel like quiting then the next day I have some improvement then it's back to doubting myself. There is so much to do and I feel overwhelmed.
Well till next week.

week 9

Well the week started out with a funeral and ended with me being rearended by a car when I was going off the exit onto rt. 50 at Bridgeport Hill. I thought my van was crushed but it only had a little scratch on the bumper. I was so shook up. Now I feel sore. The days in between were busy trying to pull all the work together that I have been working on. I feel I did a little better. There is a lot of work ahead. New goals to accomplish. I think will I be able or am I so far behind and slow that I will never catch up or hold my own. My grandsons went over signs with me tonight. They are always an appreciative audience and willing participants.
Well till next week.